Every Sunday until September I’ll be pulling a (virtual) card from the Universe Has Your Back deck and reflecting on it.

I choose love no matter what.

My brain was just starting to wind down and then I found out I may not get my postgraduate loan. Not to worry, I thought, I’m standing for election and interviewing for a casual job in a couple of weeks. If successful I’ll be able to pay my fees with my extra wages.

I set up a weekly online meeting to talk with students, and hours later I receive a letter about adult learners returning to college. Namely I won’t be able to return this academic year – this is OK because I finished my course. But there is still no guidance on next year. I don’t know whether I can enrol and study remotely, or whether I won’t be able to enrol at all. If the latter I need to rethink my election position. I have been told the situation could change in the second or third term of the academic year. So I’ll be standing for election with the knowledge that I may not be studying in the year I am in office (if elected). Of course I am not the only student in this position but it just feels a bit weird.

I’ve been contacted regarding a casual job I applied for back in 2018! It has become available again and I’ve been invited to apply. My only gripe is that it’s three days a week and my current job is three days a week. I could stretch to working six days a week but it’ll tire me out. I’ve also got some unclaimed holiday I could use to ease the transition into the role. I’ve applied and asked if there is any flexibility. The role would be for three months, and cover the cost of my postgraduate fees.

I’ve booked some leave at the end of next month. I’ve got to the burnout stage of the year. I feel so indecisive and weepy.

Every Sunday until September I’ll be pulling a (virtual) card from the Universe Has Your Back deck and reflecting on it.

I find a deeper meaning and personal growth amid the discomfort.

I hope this card is true It has been a painful week. My mind is overwhelmed and I am trying to stay strong for people around me.

Every Sunday until September I’ll be pulling a (virtual) card from the Universe Has Your Back deck and reflecting on it.

When I lean toward love I am led.

This week I told some colleagues and classmates that I am struggling with my mental health. The care I was shown afterwards made a difference.

Every Sunday until September I’ll be pulling a (virtual) card from the Universe Has Your Back deck and reflecting on it.

I choose to learn through love.

Making art has been a rich experience.

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I have learnt that I don’t like unfinished work, and that rushing to finish is a habit hard to shake off. I’m practising leaving things alone to return to later.

Every Sunday until September I’ll be pulling a (virtual) card from the Universe Has Your Back deck and reflecting on it.

My faith has the power to turn trauma into healing, conflict into growth, and fear into love.

So yesterday I received one comment on my blog post less than an hour after publishing. But, what’s more, is that it was posted on one of my COVID diaries which I had originally deleted because I thought they were boring (and very long too).

I’ve been spending today writing out prompts for my job interview later this week. I surprised myself with how much I knew.

No pitches got picked up this month; it’s disappointing because I thought I wrote some good pieces. But I feel like they will get picked up one day – my last pitch got picked up eight months later.

Month ends always make me optimistic.