I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
Why I am so driven
To make a difference
Yet so insecure
Afraid to speak out loud
Opinions clattering like a slot machine
In my mind
But the face just beams kindly

I passed my last assessment
I am going up a level
Another success under my belt
I felt nothing

I question why I continue
What I hope to achieve

Hoping the next promotion or publication or award
Will mean something
I will be enough

I will leap out of bed in the morning and feel ready for the day