Well, it’s out there now

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I spent today trying to get my references sorted and get some clarification on a handful of other questions I had. I’m not ashamed to admit I feel frightened about reapplying. I withdrew from my undergraduate course this year because I realised it was not everything I hoped it would be – that was my mistake.

However, I have spent months researching this course and qualification. I’ve bombarded the department and student services with emails so I can reassure myself I will get the support I need. I’ve reviewed my schedule on a weekly basis to identify areas where I stretch myself too thin and tried to arrange a well-balanced routine.

Last year I was ill-prepared for study. This time around I’ve tried my best to make sure I’m as secure as I can be. So, if I withdraw or fail it won’t be my mistake – it will be me.

Anyway, it’s raining and thundering and lightning so I’m going to gaze out of the window while I think some more.

Lately I’ve been thinking about Brighton a lot. I even considered a stay in the Nookii room (I was hoping to pitch an article about staying there and get my expenses paid!). But instead I’ve booked some days off to lay in bed and try to avoid the heat. My workplace has been getting busier over the past few weeks and I need a data detox.

The most exciting part of my weekend was that I managed to write an article in an hour and I’ve filled an application form to get my advanced learner loan written off. Oh, and I applied to do a nail technology course. Yes. OK I know it’s weird. Especially as most people who know me know I don’t wear make-up, I’ve never worn any make-up other than eyeliner, eye shadow and lip tint. I don’t even know most things a manicurist does. Other than paint nails. And maybe file.

I am tiring of feeling no control over my output. I want to try something new. And I want a skill I can sell to other people. So, let’s see where this takes me.