I don’t dance around the perimeter of the person I want to be; I step in fully and completely

I love a good blogging challenge, and I noticed some of the erotic blogosphere are taking part in Every Damn Day in June.

Everyday I will be plucking a card from my Miracles Now card deck and writing about what comes to mind…

I had a meeting this afternoon. As a nervous person, I planned my route but when I woke I decided to leave for the meeting an hour earlier just in case. It turns out I made the right decision. I got lost in North Kent and ended up taking an extra hour to get to my destination. I had the route written down and I was referring to a map, but I ended up near a place with lots of windy roads, side streets, footpaths and obscured road signs.

I arrived at the building flustered after being catcalled, and hungry because I didn’t have time to get lunch and knowing where the campus cafe was. And then my Chromebook couldn’t connect to wi-fi (mainly because I wasn’t remembering the initial sign-in rules). I didn’t bring a pen or paper because I wanted to only work off cloud storage in my new job.

It started raining on my journey so I was wet from the rain as well as my uncomfortable encounter half an hour prior.

I did not feel good.

But then the meeting started and we looked at some data. We had ten minutes to comment on it but I said nothing because it takes me longer to review data (and I’m more interested in the omissions!).

Afterwards the members gave updates on the work they were doing, and some of it went over my head. But the rest I understood. And when attendees were referring to wider policies and latest research I felt like I belonged in that group. I followed the conversations with ease; which is quite something when you realise that was my third day on the job.

This card reminds me I am where I want to be, and I am good at being me.