Every Sunday until September I’ll be pulling a (virtual) card from the Universe Has Your Back deck and reflecting on it.

I surrender to a power greater than me.

I’ve been trying to tie up a draft I have been working on for a month. I am about two thirds of the way through. I planned to complete last month but I struggled with it, so I ended up taking a course to help me organise it. It was very helpful, and after an hour of tidying it got to a place I like! But now, the project feels like it’s casting a huge shadow on me; it has taken too long and I feel like I need to make it better to justify the time spent.

The project has actually been stewing in my mind for a quarter now. I worked on it occasionally, in small steps, because I knew I’d get swept up in the user experience of it all. But after passing my probation period in my current role I wanted to finish it to show people. But it has become a phenomenal beast. Everything I write is lacking; but I guess that’s coronavirus anxiety and writer’s block. Focus is hard.

I am waiting to hear back about three writing pitches this month. I am not optimistic, but I felt great knowing that my brain can think of things other than viruses. I had a couple of hours of writing with joy – bliss.