CW: gore

I expected it to be more gelatinous, perhaps springier, but instead, after scooping it from the gel it had been sitting in for god knows how long, the eye sat limp and heavy as a blood clot in my palm. It still stared though, unflinchingly, and without an eyelid to shield the vulnerability of myself from it’s still piercing blue gaze, I finally had the time and space to consider it all.

At this hour, the only hour this could be done in peace and quiet, the dark too drew close to consider its strained dead vessels, those ribbons of burgundy memory lost to an eternal shadow of its own. Mine would only last until morning.

That was one of the powers I had over it, over him, at last.

Squishing it would render this moment devoid of its ultimate delight, even though my fingers twitched, aching to crush every last remnant, and melt the last grasp of him between my fingers just as he had done me many a time, on many a night such as this.

No. Savouring the sorrow of his last expression would be worth every bite. I swallowed down the sour vomit that swelled suddenly in my throat once, then again as the eye stared back one last time. Then I shut my own. I would not let him ruin this last thing for me.

My lips parted. My breath hung in the air heavy and hot. My fingers flinched again, careful to keep just enough grasp on it to prevent a slip too soon, but also just enough to ensure I didn’t puncture it with my nails and ruin the tender resistance of this singular sweet sphere. I brought my fingers towards my open mouth just like he liked to do with his own. I exhaled slowly and cleared my mind, just like he always told me to.

Finally, shuddering out my last tethers of reservation, I popped it onto my tongue, I chewed once, swallowed and swallowed and swallowed again.

My eyes rolled inside my head, then opened to the dark, . I exhaled and crossed the last requirement off my to-do list with a limp-wristed flick.

Anticlimactic, just as I always was with him.

But at least he was consistent in that regard.

At least he continued to meet my expectations.

At least all the evidence was now taken care of.