I wrote a couple of posts this month, but I didn’t feel ready to share. Lockdown easing has just shown me how bad my anxiety has got. During lockdown I guess I could kid myself that I was avoiding things due to safety. This month saw a hairdresser visit and walk to a market that ended in meltdown. I did make £40 in vouchers from focus groups though, I activated them online and asked for them to be posted. But I didn’t realise I had to activate them again so I took them to the supermarket and they got rejected. So then I got stressed out because I spent my actual money that I was budgeting on my normal grown-up sensible grocery shop with.

I felt really embarrassed, and unwell, and sad. But I randomly started watching Girls and saw the main character’s OCD – and it just helped me stop beating myself up for a short while.

Anyway, here’s a video of me reading part of an Orwell essay for Share A Story Month.