During the briefing for the tell us about it project I was very ill and bed-bound, this illness prevented me from working for about 2 weeks and coming out of it I felt very scattered and out of practice, I had a lot of mental clutter and struggled to stay on task or even start tasks, my flat was a mess and this visualized how I felt inside, so I drew my room in all its messy glory in a simple line drawing, I then tidied up and drew the clean area of my room, this exercise helped me feel a lot calmer gave me a  bit more self-confidence to start the project.

Messy Room

Clean Room

I wasn’t sure what to do the project on, and I hadn’t seen a tutor due to my illness, I was ill for two weeks and towards the end of the last week coronavirus and self-isolation began making headlines, because I had a viral infection and many symptoms of corona I had to self isolate for a further two weeks, so wasn’t able to attend crits or tutorials, this meant a lot of my research and critical development was done at home with no external input. The two drawings above catalyzed the start of the development of my project as visually describing how I felt while mentally cluttered, inattentive and unmedicated, through a visual medium made me feel like I was marking the end of that way of thinking and it freed me of the pressure I put on myself because, despite all those issues, I was producing work, expressing myself and finally chipped a small chunk of work off what felt like a huge dense block of progress I had to make.

I was no longer ill so I could take my medication again, clean my room, organize my life, and start the project properly. Although I liked these drawings I felt like they were jumping into a more finished idea, and I wanted to lay down the research and groundwork so I knew what I was trying to communicate