Mia’s poem

I normally avoid accessing healthcare unless it’s life threatening

I don’t know if I would still engage

I’ve given up in the end, it’s for my own wellbeing

 

I decided to give it a try

I was expecting something and then ended up with nothing

I was even more disappointed.

 

I’d lost lots of weight

I hadn’t really talked to any of them for about a year

I really needed to change

 

I saw my GP

I’m actually really lucky

I said every now and again, you come across a Unicorn that actually kind of gets it

 

I just get passed from one person to the other

I just get signposted like all around

I just fall through the cracks

 

I didn’t get anything at all

I felt abandoned

I didn’t really understand what was going on

 

I’ve been gaslit so many times

I normally expect to be gaslighted by anything I say

I just get quiet because it’s better for them to just think what they think than for me to speak

 

I hate that feeling

I just don’t see how it can work for someone that’s neurodivergent

I’ve been through the cycle so many times

 

I tried CBT and that just made me worse

I just got dismissed every session

I just didn’t fit anything. It was just so traumatic

 

I’ve literally tried everything to the Nth degree,

I’ve done anything to avoid going around this cycle

I’m a lot worse at the end of it than I was at the beginning

 

I do not want CBT

I need something that’s neuroaffirmative

I need a different kind of therapy

 

I’m either not believed, not understood, or they just can’t relate to it

I need an extra pair of ears just to listen

I can’t always retain or process it all, as well as be present and mask

 

I can’t do it all.